For the past 20 years I’ve made sure my boys had everything they hoped Santa would bring. Last year, it was a 1-son Christmas. This year, it’s a zero-son Christmas. The house is in a shambles. I can’t find the tree. Blah, blah, blah.

The decorations at the store went up before Halloween. This is what they’ve ordered. This is what you got. This is all you’re gonna get. Black Friday came like a big dog. Customers were waiting at 5 a.m. to swoop in on the deals. We kicked tail. That was it.

The other night … we decided we’d make a run to the nearest wet county (The Prohibition has not been abolished here, Dad would say). Mother Hubbard’s cupboard was bare. It’d been a rough week with ice storms and flu bugs. There was a dense fog advisory.

We conferred. It was unanimous. Neither rain, nor sleet, nor whatever that third thing is (Dark of night? Snow? Bumper-to-bumper traffic?) We should go.

I used to be able to handle rush-hour traffic in Peoria, Chicago, St. Louis, Little Rock, Memphis. Now, I can’t see at dark, and I get nervous if I’m not the only car on the road. Don drove. I took off my glasses so I couldn’t see. I put them back on, and everything looked the same. I turned on my cell phone and played Guitar Hero.

We made it there. We spent money.

On the way back, I thought about how broke we are. I thought about the fact that I’ve been poor since the time I legally became an adult. I’m pre-menopausal. Stuff wasn’t bad at all growing up. I never wanted for anything. Since I moved out of my parents’ home, I’ve never been able to make ends meet. (Moral of the Story: Don’t become a journalist, boys and girls.)

“How are we gonna make it two more weeks?”, I asked myself. Where will I find the cash to go pick up my youngest for Christmas week? Meanwhile, we were putt-ing along in the dense fog on the way home. I suggested the windshield wipers (didn’t make a difference), and I shifted the clasp on my necklace. It’s always moving around and hanging up on my little gold Cross.

Every time I pray, I touch the Cross Don got me last Christmas. It’s just below my Adam’s Apple. That night in the fog I shifted my necklace, and the true meaning of Christmas hit me in the side of the head like a ton of bricks. I thought about how the boys and I would always build the Fuller-Brush tree together, string the lights until we were dizzy, put up our special Hallmark ornament from that year. My boys are coming home. I thought about Nestor, the Long-eared Christmas Donkey. That was what we topped it off with each Christmas. Hokey,’70s stop-animation BS. Nestor was a Rudolph wannabe.

Nestor’s ears were so long (How long were they?) he tripped over them. The Arabs threw him out of the stable by his ears, and his mother broke out, sheltering him with her body from the cold. Of course, like Bambi’s mom, Nestor’s kicked the bucket. Cue your own Mom’s crying.

It ends up so well, though, for Nestor, and for all of us. Joseph and Mary used Nestor to bring them into Bethlehem. Nestor was somebody. He was able to go back home and shout, “Kiss my ass (literally – cuz he’s a donkey)! I got Mary to the manger. I am the chosen ass.”

What’s the point of all this, then? Shoot. Still hoping for a Christmas miracle. Still a Christian. I missed it this year. I’ll be more than ready the next.

Merry Christmas!
Julie
11:49 p.m.
12/19/08

It’s a most exciting and adventurous time, yet it’s dismal and sucky all at once. Within the past week, we’ve both contracted serious winter colds but had planned a couple of weekdays off together and reserved a cabin in the mountains. It was a 4-hour drive.

I’ve gotta keep the typing to a minimum (it’s noisy). We had a nice time. I’ve posted some pix on our Gravel Travel site. http://www.graveltravel.us/whiterock.htm

Brett Hudson dropped me a line while the old man and I were in the Mountains. I had talked to him 6 months ago about the DVD release of the Hudson Brothers’ Saturday morning show, “Razzle Dazzle.” Brett told me at the time about his battle with cancer, and I decided I didn’t want to be the one to tell anyone his personal business. He’s working on a film, “The Klinik,” about his battle and that of others who find a cure in Germany. I’ll be talking to Brett tomorrow and will visit with Bill soon about his musical goings on.

But the main point of Brett and my conversation tomorrow will be about a soon-to-be-released live Hudson Brothers CD from a 1978 appearance at the Chateau on Sunset Strip. The tapes have been lost for 30 years.

Tune in tomorrow.

Julie
12:54 a.m. 12/15/08

We’ve come up with a fun new Thanksgiving tradition. I got the idea from my favorite British comedian, Ricky Gervais, who has the funniest blog on the internet. Take a picture of yourself looking surprised.

We put the digital camera on a tripod, put it on self timer and hit the shutter release, with 10 seconds counting down to look surprised.

Attached are the results. I did my own first. When I got back from the bathroom, I set the tripod up for Don to do his. After I changed my drawers, we went to Mountain View where Dad donated his surprised expression. Mike topped it all off with the funniest yet. Then, we went back to Batesville with a plate for Don’s friend, Aurby. I twisted his arm, and the results are priceless.

Let me know what you think. I’m gonna put them on my blog, and please send me your pictures of you looking surprised.

Happy Holidays!
Julie

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I can’t believe it’s almost Thanksgiving. And how much has changed in the past five years.

Sunday, Nov. 23, 2003, my mother, Earlene Marie Biddison Fidler, passed away. Now, I know as a journalist, we don’t normally use the phrase “passed away.” It’s not AP style. People die. But, I can’t bring myself to word it like that.

Like this coming Sunday, Nov. 23, 2008, it was the weekend before Thanksgiving. Mom was really ill, and although I knew she wouldn’t feel like eating turkey and all the trimmings, let alone cooking the whole mess, I said I’d be over early Thanksgiving morning to cook up something small, and we’d have Thanksgiving. Instead, we had a funeral the day before.

A whole lot has gone down in these past five years, not all good, and thank God, not all bad.

Used to, I published The Fidler Forum. It started out as a Christmas newsletter, snail mailed (before e-mail) to all the family and friends. Then, it grew into a quarterly and monthly publication, complete with contributing writers across the country. Mom wrote a column, “Mom’s Corner,” for many of the editions, especially around the holidays. I’ll be featuring a couple of those here in the coming month. My friend, Jill Reed, hung onto her copies of the Forum, and snail mailed me the columns, which I had misplaced. Thanks, Jill!

What all has happened since then … Let me ponder aloud chronologically.

2003 — At the same time I lost Mom, I hooked up with someone with whom I was entirely incompatible. Everyone saw it but me. I was in some sort of vacuum-like shock. I knew I had to marry the guy, because that’s what I thought Mom would want, rather than me “shacking up.”

We struggled through the holidays, not really observing any of them.

2004 — I married the doofus on May Day. One of my dad’s brothers ended his own life the next day. I quit a good-paying job I hated for one more likable that didn’t pay and wouldn’t last. That September, Dad was diagnosed with bladder cancer. Things got even worse in the marriage, and I tossed him out in December and filed for divorce. Dad recovered from a surgery that removed his bladder and various other nearby organs.

2005 — My brother, Mike, came to Arkansas in February and moved in with Dad to help him around the place. In June, I went from the low-paying job to take a job as an “appliance specialist” at the local home improvement center being built in town. I met “the paint guy” and fell in love. I’d never met anyone like him. My divorce was final in July and his in October. We began seeing each other just before Thanksgiving and dated through the holidays.

2006 — In January, the paint guy and I decided to “enter into an official partnership.” He moved in, and we agreed we couldn’t imagine being with anyone else. For Valentine’s Day, he tattooed my name and a tribal design on his arm, wiping out the name of a former partner. In April, I flew to Florida for a job interview for a copy editor’s spot at a newspaper where my friend Sarah works. They offered me the job. After weighing out what it would mean to take the job — uprooting my two teen-age sons and moving them 1,000 miles, leaving my dad and brothers behind and forcing my man to find a job in Florida, a place I was not familiar with — versus the amount they were willing to pay me and the cost of living in that state, I decided against it. I got Don’s name tattooed over the heart above my left breast.

After that, I made a huge mistake and took a job with a small trader paper that was just trying to get off the ground. That didn’t work out, and I was jobless from August until November when I took a minimum wage part-time holiday job at JCPenney hanging clothes on racks before dawn each day. Just before Christmas, I was lucky enough to get hired back at the home improvement place in the same position I held before.

While I was working at Penney’s, just before Thanksgiving, I got a call from someone at the home center, saying my man had been taken to the emergency room. They thought he’d had a stroke. Ended up, it was an aneurysm, just behind his eye. We went to Little Rock a few days before Christmas for brain surgery. Again, we made it through the holidays.

2007 — That year, we prepared for my oldest son to graduate from high school. However, I didn’t get to see the ceremony because my youngest son broke his arm the afternoon of the graduation and spent the whole evening in the ER. That summer, we helped Number One Son move to the college campus and said goodbye. The old man and I got to know each other better. The rest of the year was fairly uneventful, but far from prosperous.

2008 — In April, I went for a big job interview in Springfield, Mo. I blew them away. I was under the impression I had the position. I was sorely mistaken. Mike and Don (the brother and the man) worked their feathers off fixing up the house while I packed boxes in preparation for the big move. I let the cat out of the bag at my current job because I was so excited. And it didn’t happen. In May, we bid farewell to my youngest son, who was moving to Memphis to live with his dad and stepmother to finish out his high school years. He’d been having a lot of trouble in the school system here. That made it awful quiet around here, and I began suffering from what I call “premature empty nest syndrome.” Then, the bone spur on my right heel became more and more unbearable to where I couldn’t function properly. The doc called for surgery, and I spent July 15-Aug. 24 on my couch, unable to do for myself. Thank goodness I had Don & my buddies, Sherrie and Cynthia. Toward the end of that six weeks, we took a fun float trip on the river. In July, I signed away all of my parental rights to Son Number Two. A few days after I went back to work, we got a phone call that my sister-in-law had, age 51, died on Labor Day evening. That couldn’t be right. But true.

Mike, Dad and I went up to Illinois to comfort Bob and remember Shar for a couple days. We brought Bob back down here for a week and had a nice time. The day Bob left, Dad started having irregular heartbeats. One week later, he was having open heart surgery in Little Rock, and I was missing work again.

It’s been a rough fall, and this brings us full circle. But wait, it gets better. On Nov. 10, the old man and I observed what I refer to as our third “anniversary.” That is to say, on Nov. 10, 2005, we had what I like to refer to as “our first date.” What that means is, he came over to my house that night and watched my DVD of “Napoleon Dynamite.” Gosh! Earlier this week, we were told Don has been chosen for the promotion to supervisor over the contractor services desk. All right. Way to go, mate. I’m so proud of my man. Now, I’m shacking up, and even Mom thinks it’s OK.

So, back to Thanksgiving. They’ve been pretty rough since Mom’s passing. But, I can see the light, and it’s fixin’ to get a lot better, man!

Have a nice day,
Julie M. Fidler
Nov. 20, 2008
17:55

Thanks for all your nice comments. Don’t mean to be such a downer at times. Things are good now, and I’ll write again soon.

Julie
10:39 11/14/08

It’s the top of the 9th, and the frickin’ Dodgers lead 9-1. We lost last night too. Both on home turf. We had the home field advantage for God’s sakes!! We only have to win 3 games!!! We’ve done that! We’ve won the central division title two years in a row now. We can do this!

At Wrigley, we stand on our feet when Zambrano pitches two strikes in a row. No one ever leaves their seats until the fat lady sings. Tonight, the pain in the faces in the crowd is unbearable. My face is synchronized. They showed one Cubs fan watching Dodgers home run #9, burying his face in his hands and not coming up for air any time soon.

1908. That’s the last time we won a World Series. My Grandpa Biddison would’ve been in his prime. He’d have been growing up listening to the Cubs games on the ol’ family radio. Decades went by, and Grandpa B. cussed those Cubs and he cussed those Cubs.

Grandpa B. had one of those big hearing aids, but he refused to wear it. Grandpa B. had a brass spittoon next to his chocolate brown naugahyde LaZBoy. He had a radio stand next to his chair, on the right. It was black with long legs, and painted with some sort of flowery thing on the front in red and white. It had a door on it that was made to look like two separate drawers. But, really, when you pulled the pull, it would swing open with hinges on the left side.

The rectangular black plastic radio with the white knobs and red needle atop the stand was always blasting the ballgame when the Cubs played. The TV set (truly a “set” with a wooden console) had the rabbit ears aimed at Chicago for the game on WGN. The volume button – yes, button, a sort of small knob that you had to walk across the room to control – was turned clockwise as far as allowed.

I sat upon Grandpa’s lap with my blue felt two-dollar Kmart Cubs hat atop my pony-tailed head. I had my mitt on my left hand. Only I knew what the old black radio stand contained.

(I see now it’s 10-1 in the bottom of the 9th, Cubs fans, and Derrek Lee just hit a double with no outs. THERE’S STILL A CHANCE!!!!!)

Sorry, I got sidetracked, thinking, dumbass Cubs fan that I am, there could possibly still be a chance we make it to the World Series.

Anyhoo … (go Aramis, we got no outs!) … Grandpa opens the old stand (Aramis advances to third, and we’ve got a man on first as well. DeRosa’s up to bat with no outs. Strike one. Pie’s on deck. DeRosa hits one off the third-base line and it’s called foul. Wow. My hat’s inside out.)

(One and two’s the count on DeRosa. Ramirez steals second. It’s two and two. The fans are chanting “Let’s go Cubbies.” It’s a double. Two men score for us. It’s now 10 to 3, still no outs with a runner at second. High fives all around.)

(The Dodgers coach is headed to the field.)

So, Grandpa opens the stand and pulls out a big stack of bubblegum cards. He slowly undoes the brittle rubber band with hands taken over by arthritis.

(The ESPN commentators are calling this game “officially over.” Cub fans, apparently, they’re not. Assholes.)

Grandpa removes the top card. Milt Pappas. He complains about the length of Pappas’ hair. And, look at those sideburns. A travesty. The next one looks like a playing card. It’s not your traditional Topps baseball card. One side of it has a blue design like those poker cards, and the other side has a mug shot of Ron Santo in the middle, a number in each corner, and bold text saying, “Pop Out.”

Well, Grandpa looks at the card. (Pie walks and now we have men on first and third. Soto comes up, and there’s a conference of homosexuals on the mound. Ball one to the Cubs’ catcher. Still no outs. I need to get another beer.)

(Fukudome is up with one out, and the count’s oh and one. Men on first and third. One ball and one strike. Strike two. Outside corner – looked like a frickin’ ball to me. Two and two. Look at that pitcher’s sideburns. Third strike. Fukudome must’ve been wooed by the burns. We’re down to our last out and Ward is stepping in to bat. Lord, help us. Two and oh to Ward. 4 errors this game. What the f**k?!! Two and one the count, and the Cubs fans are standing up again, of course. We have runners out there. Don’t strand ’em!! Full count. Oh my God, he’s got an earring in his ear. Just like a girl. Uh-oh. I’m channeling Grandpa B. again. They’re showing a female Cubs fan praying. Strike 3. That’s it. We suck, as expected. G!@#^&**%!!!!!!!!)

Grandpa turns the card over in his frail hands to look directly into the eyes of Santo. “Pop out,” he says. “That’s right. That’s all he’s ever good for. He couldn’t hit the ground with his hat.” He’s not angry. He doesn’t raise his voice. He’s just stating a fact.

“Here,” he says, handing the card to me. “You can have him. He’s worth nothing to me.”

He’s worth a lot to me. Now.

Julie
12:03 a.m.
10/3/08

Dad is doing much better, and it is looking like Mike and I will be able to bring him home over the weekend.

Thanks also to Debra May in Carmel, Indiana, for find “Buster”! Here’s a link to see what he’s doing now and what he looks like. http://www.wfwa.org/studio_39_page/studio_39.html

Cool beans!

Julie
10:40 a.m.
10/2/08

Anyone who’s ever met my mom knows she exuded optimism, joy and happiness. She earned the nickname while working at the five and dime and was a fountain girl before my dad saw her in the window working on her latest job, as window display designer.

Aug. 13 Mom would be 80. This Thanksgiving she will have been physically gone for 5 years. Hard to believe … because Mom is here with me every day.

I smell her, I feel her, see her, and hear her daily.

While recuperating these past few weeks, I figured out some computer stuff and waded through some early family movies.

I knew what we had was something rare to be treasured. I realized I lived a “Wonder Years” existence. But, now, in going through these old films, I’ve realized what brilliant people my parents really are.

Dad worked with a hand-me-down 8mm camera (not Super 8 with sound), and Mom worked with, well, her God-given talents.

My plan is/was to come up with a Fidler Family video to give everyone at Christmas on DVD, complete with chapter selections and extras, perhaps some narration.

What’s amazing is how little editing is required. My dad shot all this with the cuts in his head, conserving film and developing costs, physically cranking the camera between takes, and I guess, asking or telling my mother what he would like her to do.

Then there’s my Mom, always acknowledging the camera — and then ignoring it.

Pure brilliance.

So, I’ve edited this down to 3 ½ minutes, and it’s all their doing.

Happy birthday Mom.
I love you.
Sis

While recuperating from surgery, there’s not a whole lot one can do — except turn into Jack Nicholson from “The Shining.” So, I’ve parked my ass in front of the television A LOT.

Seeing all this hullabaloo about the Beijing Olympics (testing for steroids, testing to make sure competitors are the gender they say they are, pollution in China, the 41-year-old swimming mom whose coach has fallen ill) makes me long for “The Battle of the Network Stars.”

Now, THERE’S sports worth watching. Celebrity T&A (and D).

CBS’ Tom Selleck in a Speedo atop the starting block at the pool; Richard Hatch (the REAL one, from ABC’s “Streets of San Francisco” — not the fat, naked gay guy from “Survivor”) sweating in his blue Addidas shorts, thigh muscles rippling in the relay race; Leif Garrett looking tossled after jumping the hurdles; and yes, Farrah’s hair staying gorgeous in the tug of war even while she’s wearing white knee socks with a couple of blue stripes at the top (where ARE the young chicks finding those now?).

But, probably the episode most of us remember is when Robert Conrad threw a hissy fit. I couldn’t stand that guy. I hated his commercials. “Knock this battery off my shoulder. I dare ya!”

I’ll knock yer head off yer @!#*! shoulders, ya frickin’ !@#&*!

The situation was the relay race. ABC’s team captain was Mr. Kotter, Gabe Kaplan. The team included actors from “Happy Days,” “Laverne & Shirley,” “Streets of San Francisco,” and “Charlie’s Angels.” Conrad was on NBC’s team. Shoot, the only things I watched on NBC were “CHiPs” (LOVED to watch Erik Estrada on “Battle of the Network Stars” — be still my heart) and “Saturday Night Live.” “Kojak’s” Smelly Savalas was the captain for CBS. That team included, hell, I don’t know — who else was there but Thomas?

I found a clip of this on You Tube, of course. It starts off with ol’ cigarette-puffin’, shades-wearin’ baldy Smelly Savalas talking to Howard “Get this thing off my head” Cosell. It’s about 9 minutes long, but definitely worth a peek. By the way, I still have my huge poster of Selleck in his Speedo on the starting block plastered to our bedroom wall. Don isn’t offended because he thinks it’s one of the Scrubbing Bubbles.

Conrad Vs. Kaplan

Put this URL in your Browser and smoke it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqWU9huMMco

Meanwhile, back at the ranch …

I finally got a video of Don & his buddy approved for upload. Well, sorta. I showed it to them, and they both liked it, but they want to do it again — the right way. Don told Old Fartt #2, “It’s more of a showcase of Julie’s talents than ours.”

As I showed it to them, I couldn’t argue with that, and I take absolutely no offense. My role is writer, director, videographer, film editor, sound engineer, producer and fan base. They’re “the talent.” (more demanding than the Monkees for gosh sakes)

So … they are in the process of honing their skills. I’ve provided them with a Large Print copy of the lyrics, and the 2 Old Farttz are gonna “do it right” for the second version of this video. I’m allowed to present it here so long as I let the viewers/readers/public/world know, “It gets a WHOLE lot better than this.”

OK. That being said, check out this video from an impromptu jam session in our living room a week ago tonight. Let me know what you think.

2 Old Farttz Jam

I can’t seem to get the videos to embed, so copy and paste this address into another tab on your browser, and enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_TqcKhqJO4

It’s 104 on the porch.
Stay cool,
Julie
12:10 p.m. 8/1/08

Just a quickie this morning. I failed to do my chores yesterday, and I am now beating myself up for that. So, I’m writing just this little bit about what I forgot to write yesterday, and then, if I behave, I’ll get to sit down at the computer and have some more fun. (@!#*! laundry, dishes, litter box, sweeping, cleaning bulls–t!)

I’m having so much fun with this gadget I bought last year and finally got to work the other day. I’m going through the old Fidler family home movies (8mm, no sound, mostly in color). I’ve posted one three and a half minute clip on You Tube and Stuck in the ’70s. I’m also learning about vlogging (video blogging), and that may be something I can add to the site soon, depending on how enthusiastic I get. I’ll get those stitches out of my right heel this afternoon.

Check it out on You Tube, and let me know what you think.

I’m working on a documentary of Don & his friend of 50 years, Aurby. They’ve been playing music together for a long time. I’m dying to put a clip of them performing the Taj Mahal version of “Giant Step” on this blog, but the old man’s got to approve any visual stuff I put of him on here (something to do with not wanting to be embarrassed worldwide or some crap like that). So, when one gets the stamp of approval, I’ll let ‘er rip!!

OK, rackin’ frackin’ housework ….

Julie
09:20 a.m. CDT 7/29/08
94 degrees on the front porch